We had a difficult week last week. Without going into much detail we heard of a potential opportunity that seems to have fallen through by this point. While last week was definitely hard for us, we felt that if the time was right, we were ready to receive a child in our home.
Our baby room is pretty much all set. Obviously it will forever be a work in progress as we add and as a child grows in it, but we have the basics of what you need to welcome a child. First few months, the baby would sleep in our room obviously, but it is definitely good to know that we have everything pretty much set and ready to go.
One thing that we have learned and has been the hardest for us is that with adoption there is no time frame, it isn’t like having biological children that you know you have so many months to prepare for a child, that has been one of the hardest things for us. Yes, we could get a call that a pregnant woman wants to meet us and she may be half way through pregnancy or close to giving birth and that would give us some kind of hypothetical time frame, but we could also just get a call and have to take off. We are grateful that we have both had that talk with our employers that we may just need to leave suddenly one day and start our leave at work, we are both blessed to have understanding bosses that are perfectly OK with that happening.
We are more ready than we have ever been, our home and hearts are so ready for this!
And just like that, 2015 is over, it’s gone and it is never coming back!
We say this because 2015 was the definition of a roller coaster for us, but in a good way. As we reminisce on what last year brought to our lives, we can’t help but to think where we were one year ago. As we were driving back from some friends house roughly past midnight, we remembered how a year ago was one of those many days when we were hoping we were finally expecting, only to be dissapointed a couple days later with that not being the case. It became a month to month occurrence for us, until we started wondering around April and May that maybe there was a reason why the test was always negative and why maybe it wasn’t happening for us.
You all know where we came from when we began our adoption journey back in June of this year (and if not, you can read our first blog post here) and as we decided we would commit to adoption, there was also a big factor of insecurity for us, specially in the financial aspect as we decided to go through the route of a private domestic adoption, which is very costly and there is no way around that. We were afraid of that huge number and were unsure if we could even ever get to that number, but it really is by the grace of God and our very loving friends and family who have helped and participated in our various fundraising events, that the number seems less and less scary every day, which not so long ago seemed like an impossible thing for us.
As we are entering 2016, we don’t know when we will get the call saying “Mr and Mrs Guerrero, we have a baby for you” or “a pregnant woman has picked you to adopt her child”, we just don’t know when that will happen, but we are taking baby steps (pun accidentally intended) to make that moment happen.
Last year was a very challenging, yet eye opening and good year for us and we are looking forward to what this year is going to bring!
Happy New Year from our family to yours!
Luis & Danielle